I just couldn't...help myself

There was a longing in my heart. I hoped I would be better.
Not even better, the best. Not the best of the others but myself.
I felt alone because I got lost, far from the others and of course myself.
I was nothing and yet still now.

It's the time to stop thinking and begin pursuing what I dreamed.
BUT what I had dreamed before? Is it a matter now?
Dying is matter of fact. H1N1, H5N1...seem pervasive and inevitable.
There is nothing more for living than a life...

Pathetic little human, lusting for nothing.
BUT it wouldn't stop me! From wanting to be great...
That's who I am... NORMAL couldn't exist in my library.
I have to accept, I have to admit, I have to go on in my way...
I AM WHO I AM